Ghed’s Blog

As of now i am not playing any RF Online server now
i will be stopped playing coz many bugs and hacks still not fixed even on official server
no wonder on private servers.
But im still in game called Cabal.
im playing on cabal extreme server now
sorry guys
just wanna say my regards to our guild: Blacklisted
^_^

-Ghed aka 4got10

Decisions were decided,

im no place to judge

but i think i have the right place to comment

been almost bout 5 years since im with you guys

so i think i can have my own visions in the situation

but i will hear first the MAJORITY

we NEED to talk, all of US.

hope a DECISION of one individual will not affect by the Whole.

Maybe he need a space and let him be.

like he said alwayz,

same old issue.

but yeah,not good to hear that he will turn out and create a new

we are on opposite sides,

so hard to decide specially on this kind of delicate situation

but yeah i need to decide and so all are you

for me,i will stick to the guys who i believed in and what majority has taken.its too good to be neutral,like i was eversince.

hope this is not too late,as alwayz.i dont elaborate the situation but yeah Homeboyz should know it,by all means.

"I ain’t shit without them"

and "You ain’t shit without your HOMEBOYZ"

humble as ever,

-4Got10

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its fucked up when someone you love
drifts away and then push comes to shove
im sorry for the things that were said
after all this yea i wish i was dead
yea i love you but it aint mutual
thought we had a love that was so perpetual
yes, im the one to blame
you gotta understand that i walk in shame
wishin death on me in 24 hours
killed a love so quick that couldve been ours
you want someone else, fine its all good
but try to understand i did everything i could
to keep you from goin back to him, my power aint
strong enough
never realized not lovin you and havin you would
be so tough
missin all the things that we had together
not havin you makes me feel under the weather
kisses, hugs,… jelousy and hate
now thats all gone cuz u gotta be his trophy
i hope your happy, i really do, im gonna move on
assumin this is the end

now we on the subject of the word liar
hurts both of us and our deepest desire
yea i lied to you because i wanted you to stay
you swore to me you never lied to me but its ok
thats what im known for its my gimmick
but girl dont be a hypocrite and be a mimic
little things like this makes us wanna kill each other
swear and yell and always go to one another
keeps the love inside almost fade away
makes each day grow to color gray
fine i understand its the end its over girl
but when you gonna crack and see you were my world
i wouldve done anything for you…anything at all
im tired of this fuckin shit coming to a brawl
now im gonna make this my number 1 single
let the world know my feelings for you always made me tingle
but now its over and everything is lost
im really sorry things between me and you got crossed

you say if i was like my family i would be perfect
right?
if i changed, could things between me and you ignite?
nah,it wouldnt be that way
cuz,you wish you never met me
so that means the shit between you and me it was
never gonna be
loving and caring the way i wanted it, just me and
you
wishing death on me….thanks for the fuckin low blow
how could you say things like that, i never regret shit
im angry, i dont hate you, dislike maybe a lil bit
you look at me like im wrong, you cant blame me
all this shit that was said just ruined our future
i know i was wrong for what i said, the shit i pulled
never meant to do shit to make you look fooled
but now you know how i feel, yea im fuckin angry
knowing this nigga cant hack it…dont you agree?
i dont know him so fuck it i aint gonna judge
but ya damn fuckin right im gonna hold a grudge
look around you, an see who ya real friends are
ya gon be left wit nuthin then u gona see that this whole shits bizarre
go ahead, neglect what we had in the past
i can promise you its gonna come back and bite ya
in the ass
i went nuts cuz my love for you is real
thought what me and you had was made out of steel
ok girl im done, im thru talkin bout this shit
ya kno damn well this is gon be a #1 hit
just wanted you to know that this is the way i feel
because of this whole shit, now i got a record
deal………..thank you

Yea…you know even though I’m gone…it doesn’t mean I don’t still love you…

4got10 1st verse
I’m sitting alone, but I aint by myself
Cause your presence is felt, I wont lie to myself
insides are dying, I’m needing your help
And it’s just killing my heart seeing yours melt
Everything’s spinning around, only vision I have
Is you and me together, my mind mirrors the past
It’s like how can this be? How is this right?
Everything was so perfect, our future was bright
And now its all gone, disappeared, a glitch in time
If I could only take back the hands and rewind
Maybe I’d respect time with your more, I hate it
But the time I did spend with you girl, it was amazing
I love you, there’s no way I’d take that back
That’s a never ending promise, I made that pact
But I’m gone, god’s gotta better plan, but that
Don’t change the fact, I won’t erase our past

First Lady:

Things'll never be the same without you...

What did I do to deserve this
I didn't even get one last kiss, from you
Oh baby God took your love from me
He needed an angel so it seems
I need to feel your hands all over me
I need to feel you kissing me
I need to feel you holding me
I need to feel your touch
Cause I miss your love so much
And I can't keep on living this way
I need you here with me
Why could he take you away, from me

It's hard for me to tell you I love you
As I'm standing over your grave
And I know I'll never hear your voice again
Why did you leave me
Why couldn't you just stay
Because my world is nothin', without you
Now I don't know what to do, with myself

I would've given you anything
Just to make you happy
Just to hear you say, that you love me one last time
I'd go to hell and back over and over again
Just to prove to you how much I need you here
There is nothing that I wouldn't do
I'd cry for you
I'd lie for you
And there's no doubt that if I could take your place in heaven
I would die for you, yes I will
I would rather give up my life
Than to see tears in your eyes
I can't stand to see you cry

Cause it's hard for me to tell you I love you
As I'm standing over your grave
And I know I'll never hear your voice again
Why did you leave me
Why couldn't you just stay babe
Because my world is nothin', without you
Now I don't know what to do, with myself

I just don't know what to do with myself
I cant stand looking at those pictures on my shelf
Knowing it was just one week ago, i stood there and took that picture
There just one thing that I wanna know
Why would God want to hurt me so bad,
Does He know how much it hurts to be missing you
Baby Im missing you
Baby Im missing you
I love you

4got10 2nd verseI don’t know what to do with myselfLike I know the love was true that I feltand even though I passed, I want you to knowthat my life was sacrificed for you to growand I know everything seems a blurbut clear it up, my heart & soul fiends a curefor your sake, I cant stand to see you downlike pac said “just smile” I cant stand to see you frowncause you my baby forever, we 1 togetherif your eyes are ever cloudy, I’ll clear the weatherima wait for the day we meet again in heavenuntil then I love you too

ooohh God damn it I love you
Why did he did he take you away from... me
Cause I love you so...
I miss you so much baby I just can't go on baby
Ohhhh oh

Girl, I wanna tell you, right now, right this very
second,
You think you got my heart, but I ain’t gonna let ya,
It’s not that I don’t like you,
It’s that I can’t fall in love you,
You got a way with words that’ll put me in a daze,
I don’t wanna hurt you but what if this phase,
I admit, I tend to flirt,
So in end you might get hurt,
Don’t wanna hurt you, don’t really wanna front,
Fallin’ love with you? Man, that’s the biggest stunt,
And on top of ya needs, I wanna give ya everything
ya want,

I don’t wanna get hurt, I don’t wanna hurt you,
I don’t wanna break ya heart, cause then mine
would too,
I don’t really think I’m ready to be with you,
But I can’t deny the things you make my heart do,

Now, listen up, listen up,
I really like that feeling, you give me so much bliss,
I don’t need breathe, girl, so hold onto the kiss,
I don’t wanna lose this,
It’s not about the strikeout, but girl you’re the one I
miss,
It’s tough to say whether I’m good for commitment,
But anything less, can’t heal my sickness,
I’m so indecisive, insecure? But this love I can’t
fight it,
And the look in ya eyes, girl you can’t hide it,
Now listen up, listen up, ladies and gentlemen,
The type of woman I want, takes value in the
sentiment,
Relationships? Nah, I’m a bit afraid to get into it,
Yet I feel so incomplete if we ain’t getting intimate,
I’m not playin’ with ya mind cos you ain’t
instrument,

I don’t wanna get hurt, I don’t wanna hurt you,
I don’t wanna break ya heart, cause then mine
would too,
I don’t really think I’m ready to be with you,
But I can’t deny the things you make my heart do,

I like you don’t get me wrong.
That’s just it though. I don’t wanna hurt you.

Sweet lady, you could be the answer to my
prayers,
I’m losin’ oxygen, the way you heatin’ up the air,
Got so much heartache, it ain’t good for my health,
When I say you deserve better, I ain’t thinkin’ of
myself,
But it’s tough, and it’s rough, for me to take us
serious,
In the past, I was traumatized, so I’m kinda
delirious,
But I really like you, I’m so confused,
Like bad grammar, my words don’t conclude,
Wearin’ me out, tongue tied, like I’m a pair of
shoes,
I don’t to mean to stare at you,
I’m just tryin’ to keep it real,
I don’t put you in a position, where you might have
to heal,
But I’d travel across the world, just touch ya pretty
face,
Kiss you on softly, no need to tell me how ya lips
taste,
The pain I may cause us, ain’t worth the heartache,
But the hardest thing of all, is hearin’ ya heart break

Yes,This is Reality
and No Loving Without the Pain

I remember you
and i remember me
walking in the park-that was in December breeze
and then in a crowd of trees-
you bent down on one knee
in the autumn leaves-
Thats when you said-please……..

will you be mine forever
and never
let me down
coz i’ll never make you frown
baby your my queen
to me-you wear the crown

Someone like you takes a lifetime to find,
But now I’m losing you and I’ll only have you on my mind,
I don’t want it to be this way,
Cause I’m gonna be thinkin’ of you night and day.

It’s so hard to say goodbye,
But I have to hide my tears and continue to lie,
Lie about how I’m okay with all of this,
Someone must hate me ‘cause there’s no bliss.

My affection for you grew so fast and so strong,
You were so kind and affectionate, makin’ me feel like I belong,
Comforting me through rough times and protected me from harm,
And you’ve been so many times my good luck charm.

I’ll miss your cute face,
Cause without you, life’s an empty space,
I’ll miss your pretty smile,
Which always made my heart warm and made me smile.

I can’t imagine rough times without you,
‘Cause without you the sky isn’t blue,
I can’t imagine you not being by my side,
‘Cause without you, who will be my guide?

No one can replace you, never.
Just as no once can change the weather,
And through all the people I’m going to lose, you’re the one I’ll miss the most,
But now…it’s so hard for me to say…goodbye